new year's day

I took a huge rest/nap today. I felt so guilty, that I dreamt that Paul cleaned our room (and expanded it by several feet, a theme that runs through many of my dreams). When I got up and came out here, the tree was gone! He had undecorated it, etc., so my guilt was justified. The thing is, with a little baby, a three hour nap doesn't mean a 3 hour sleep. She slept in her carriage for the first 45 minutes, and just as I started to doze, she was awake. So, into bed with me she went. I nursed her on and off for a while, then we both fell asleep. It has been a lazy day here. We celebrated New Year's Eve at our meeting hall last night, and came home after 1 o'clock. So the kids are pooped, and meals have been those sporadic group of kids at a time things....I wanted to make a pot of soup for dinner, and they all claimed they are not hungry. I guess when you eat lunch at 4 o'clock, that happens....

I gave sleeping Camille Anaya to Benjamin so I could write this, and she promptly woke up, so Evelyn has a fussing baby. Rats. I feel guilty for sitting here on the computer anyway, so I better go. Guilt is a mother's closest friend. I even feel bad throwing a load of laundry in when someone has to hold baby for me. But those dirty inside-out socks sort of even it out!!!!