about my poor knees. My right knee is nothing but a big toothache these days. And the more read about this arthritis of the kneecap, the more I am tempted to be seriously bummed out. I think I am mourning my short-lived stint as an Active Woman. I know, I know, I am not dead and buried, and I can still walk. But it hurts. Yesterday I got my new sneakers, finally, so I tried them out. It was cold and sunny, so I set out down the road with Suri. Half mile down, half mile back. Up and down Evil Hill. Yeah, I know, I am not supposed to. But we did. And it was lovely. My knee hurt, but it was nothing compared to how it hurt later. So sore and stiff. Then today I took some girls shopping, and now I have my feet up, and my knee is throbbing. Dang. I do not like this one little bit. I do not want it to progress. I am not taking the Naproxen, I don't like the possible side effects. I am taking some supplements Paul got for me, but.
So I am battling that old self-pity. I wondered earlier what I would tell someone else if they were in my shoes and asking for advice. I would tell them to Suck It Up. I would tell them Things Could Be Worse. I would say to Hurry And Lose More Weight. I would say Count Your Blessings. I would say God Knows Exactly What You Need.
Uh huh, I do know the answers.
Yet, here I sit. Wah poor me.
Today I cleaned up the kitchen and....made four pumpkin pies. Extra cinnamon-y nutmeg-y ginger-y allspice-y, with buttery flakey crusts. The house smelled amazing, and the pie....I had two pieces for dinner. But that was my dinner.
Of course my lunch was a disaster. Three of my girls talked me into taking them out to lunch today. We went to Chili's. I had chipotle chicken...and fries, and corn on the cob. I tasted to corn, wasn't good enough to waste the calories on. The fries: delectable. I had like 7 or 8 of them. Ate all the chicken. But...we had endless chips and salsa first, and I ate like 30 chips. I totally blew today. Totally. Okay, it could have been worse...but it was bad.
I don't like days like this. Especially because I know I have to work really hard to get more weight off...why do I do this to myself.
Well, Downton Abbey is on now....so bye for now.