what can I say?!

 So.  I will tell the story of my appointment this morning.  Shall I start with how nice Paul is?  We had to be out the door by 7:15, so he made me a coffee, and carried it to the car for me.  I put on my jean skirt, so the dr. could examine the knee easier, and off we went.  

Warning:  this is very difficult for me, but I will just be totally honest, I felt humiliated.

We used the wheelchair to get into the dr. office, because it is a small haul from the parking garage, and we didn't have all day, ha.  I had x-rays first, then saw the surgeon.  He was stunned that I came in the chair, said it was the first time he's ever had someone four months out come in with a wheelchair.  He said my new knee looks great, he examined my leg, said the ligaments are all nice and tight.  I told him I cannot walk yet, I walked across the room for him, and he said, That's how you walk?!   um, yes.  yes it is.  He took another look at the x-rays, and explained that everything looked perfect, but if there was anything loosening up, he couldn't do anything about it yet, but he seriously doubted that was the case anyway.  He said to walk walk walk, to do everything the physical therapist says, and keep walking.  He then said to Paul Don't baby her.  Get her to walk more.    

I died a million deaths, yes I did.  BABY me?  oh dear.

So his solution to not being able to walk is simple, just walk MORE.

Now, I'm dramatizing this, but on the way home, after a few sniffles, we agreed that he's probably right.  He says my knee is not going to buckle.  He says it's strong and firm.  He says I have to learn to trust it.  We decided not to get a second opinion at this time.  

So.  I got home, and did as much walking as I could, vacuumed without my cane, which was some hobbling and hopping, but I did it.  I did the walking while sqatting a bit, which is what the PT recommended.  I did some step ups on the stool near the bike, and rode the bike.  

Will it work?  We will see.  I plan to get back into the PT, have a talk with him, make a plan, and see if we can get me walking better.  

Sonja called me around noon and asked if I wanted to go with her to Jon and Rosi's house to deliver some diapers, and of course I did!  We got to see the new baby Emilia!  

Jonathan is totally smitten!

I didn't take a picture of Rosi, she just woke from a nap:)

We had Kaia with us too.  Juni liked her.

Home...it was raining out, and is still raining out.  Our warm day was nice, but it's getting cold again before getting warm next week.

Paul made smashburgers for dinner, I wrapped up the rest of the burger to freeze.  The girls had places to go and things to do, so it's just Paul and I here watching basketball.

In closing, please know that if we decide things aren't working with the knee, we have a name of a good surgeon, and we can get in to see him relatively quickly, as we have a relative who works for him.  But, I think we (I) need to try a little harder, knowing the hardware is sturdy.    I am not up to trying harder, but I need to.  

You all have a really nice night!  And thank you for kind words, kind thoughts, and prayers!!!