summer 2011

summer 2011

Paul and I, all 16 kids and Ashley, Benjamin's wife...Christmas 2012

Paul and I, all 16 kids and Ashley, Benjamin's wife...Christmas 2012

Thursday, January 19, 2017

a horrible nightmare of a dream....

I get to tell you my dream, but you don't have to read it. You know, when you start telling someone your dream, and they're like feigning death, not wanting the boring I'll try to keep it short...the other night, I had a dream...

...that Paul surprised me with kitchen renovations! I walked into my kitchen, in my dream, and there was a gorgeous new sink with a swanky tall faucet, but...the counter tops...oh dear, they were hideous! Green plastic-y with with white swirls, hunter green. I mean ugly, and if you happen to have these in your home at this very minute, I do apologize. But these were ugly. Then I looked at Paul, in my dream, and he was so proud of himself. He had installed it all, and surprised me, and was waiting for me to jump up and I did. (not a total body jump, I can't do that, even in dreams) I lied in my dream. I told him I loved it.

Anyway. I'm now a bit thankful for my 80's looking blue counter tops with the oak edging.

And here's a real life nightmare: I had an MRI this morning. If you are ever scheduled to have one, run in the other direction and do not stop. I am not just being a drama queen, it was horrible. I did not realize how claustrophobic I am. You have to lie flat on your back and have a mask thing over your face, then slide into the tube and hold very still...mine was 40 minutes long. I was offered a choice of music, piped in through big ugly headphones, so I classic rock it was. Mistake! "come on baby light my fire....", over and over again when it's background music is one thing, but when you're lying there listening to it in a stifling tube...ugh. The next few songs were not much better. I found myself close to panic a few times, I tried the Pretend I'm On The Beach trick, and the walking through summery grass...but it was just awful. I have had CT scans before, and they weren't so bad, but this one...ugh.

While lying there, I thought of patients in the hospital who had to just lie on their backs, especially one guy Em had, who had some sort of accident which paralyzed him from between the neck and waist....he couldn't feel himself breath, so he was consistently panicked.

Hopefully nothing is found, hopefully it's just a huge waste of time and money, ha.

I was all by myself, early in the morning, most places still closed, so I went to Walmart...they have decent pizza dough for a dollar, and the weekend is coming up...I browsed around, just enjoying myself...I got the little girls each a clearanced top, and a few wood things to paint, for art class.

Home...ah, home. I had only had coffee on the way there, so now I am having my Ezekial raisin toast, and a nice 'nother cup of coffee. Margaret is here working, the kids are reading in bed...we went to the library yesterday, so we're all stocked up again.

Emily and Mirielle came over yesterday afternoon laden with candy from South Africa, and some Kenyan coffee.


Kathyb1960 said...

A MASK FOR AN MRI???!!! Thats news to me! WOW

Elizabeth O'Neal said...

I'm praying! That is a lot to get done and go through all before 10 in the morning. Oh my. Hope you hear good news soon. Elizabeth

Marilyn Reid said...

Oh Della I have heard those MRI's are awful! What if you had to go to the bathroom? That would be my fear 😉 Hopefully all is good with that. That dream is hilarious!! Dreams can be very muddled up things can't they? My one daughter has the coolest dreams and she always remembers them in vivid detail. She flies in her dreams too. Do you ever do that? I have, but only once and it was just amazing!! Anyway have a wonderful day today 🤗

Marilyn from Canada

16 blessings'mom said...

Kathy, the mask thing is like a plastic-y cage that fits over your face, doesn't touch it, like a hockey mask sort of....not a tight fitting mask, but still. I didn't like it.
Elizabeth, thank you!
Marilyn, if you had to go to the bathroom, you could push the call button, and interrupt the session, but then you would have to resume it:( I was afraid I would have acid reflux, lying flat on my back like that. And no, I have never flown in my dreams, I cannot even run, I end up leaning over and sort of paddling with my hands, ha.

Rose Sperlonga said...

Oh I have had two MRI's. One where my body and head were all the way in. I was so sick with Labrithtitis and had to have it done~ OMGOODNESS.. it was horrid and I had a valum before hand. I had a slight panic attack but kept telling myself if you get out they will never find out what is going on with you! That is the only thing I could think of to get me through it.
The second one was on my lower back and my head was sticking out *thank God!* and it was much better. Now in the bigger cities (I live in a very small town) they have OPEN MRI's!! I will request that from now on and travel to it, I don't care how far a drive it is! lol
Good luck with your results!
only good things..


Lisa said...

Augh....I completely feel your pain and I truly believe I would have to be completely sedated to get thru that. I was never one for medication/drugs to get thru anything - but that was before I started having severe panic attacks in the dentist chair. When I finally confessed to him my issue (and knew I HAD to stop avoiding him and get a crown put in) he was so kind and concerned and easy going about it. He gave me a med to take before I came in and I was literally so relaxed I dozed off while waiting for them to make the crown in the office! I was so incredibly humiliated telling him why I couldn't sit still and confessing my fears, but I wish I'd done it much sooner! You are incredibly brave to have gotten thru that, I just couldn't do it.

Susan R said...

Wow, even in your dreams you make the best out of a less than perfect situation. Gratitude is a wonderful trait!