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Tuesday, December 22, 2015

promise me you'll be okay...pinkie promise....

Camille picks up bits and pieces and knows I am going for an appointment today. A sonogram. Having been pregnant 22 times. Yes, twenty two, sixteen children, one stillborn baby Robert, and five miscarriages. So to me, a sono is synonomous ha, SONOmous with babies. With joy. Apart from the one that revealed that little Robert no longer had a heartbeat of course.

Today, it's a different story. An ovarian cyst by itself is not a biggie. Most are fluid-filled and benign. But most don't cause pain. And it's not like the cyst/tumor/growth will hold up a little sign that says, "Don't worry, I'm not going to hurt you!", or worse. No, it has to be removed to be biopsied. And that little "removal" is what gets me a bit panicky. Because cysts/tumors/growths aren't removed in five star resorts by the ocean.

And of course there's the "c" word. It's a club I have no desire to join. I think of Camille, and Char, and Jon, and Paul...and and and ...and I like it here, on earth. My sister-in-law is going with me to the appointment (heart icon), my brother just called me and asked me to go grocery shopping to like four stores tomorrow morning (heart again), and my sister offered to come with me today but she's not feeling 100% herself, so I told her no:) I have a comfy home here on earth, and am not ready to check out any time soon.

Okay, I am Miss Drama Queen, every single issue isn't a death sentence. But writing about it straightens it out in my mind. And you all can pray for me, and for the tests I am having, that if there is something that needs to be seen and diagnosed, they see it and I get the right help. Thank you:)

12 comments:

Sarina Bronson said...

Praying for you!! You don't know me in real life, but I've been reading your blog forever and I've emailed you a couple times. You're such an encouragement to me as a mom of littles! Two things I want to email you about:: my dad just got a diagnosis of a-fib and I know you have experience with that with Paul. Also, I live in California and want to meet you, so you should come visit when your son is out here!!

Marilyn said...

{{{{{Della}}}}} That is meant to be a hug for you. I will be praying for you today.

Marilyn from Canada

Martha said...

You will be in my prayers. I fact, you already are.

beklovesjeremy said...

Hope everything with your appointment goes well.

Katie said...

Prayers

16 blessings'mom said...

Mum's the word so far, haven't heard from the radiologist yet. I think the technician saw stuff on the screen, stuff that ain't supposed to be there, but what do I know? When I asked her, she gave the standard, "I cannot diagnose, just pass on the results and you will hear from your doctor." Well then why am I not hearing from my doctor?! I stopped in there, at the dr. office, after this procedure, because Kim needed to get blood work done...and asked at the desk how long it would be to hear, and she said to call tomorrow afternoon if I hadn't heard anything by then. Can you imagine how distant tomorrow afternoon seems to me right now? Ah well. Not much I can do. But thank you so much for your kind thoughts and prayers for me, it does warm my heart and give me hope. :)
Della

FLmom7 said...

Praying for you Della. Hope it's just a minor thing. I had a few scares too the last couple of years....the waiting for news is hard. Sending you hugs & prayers from Florida.

Lisa said...

Prayers for a completely benign outcome :) I hope you get the results quickly -it does weigh on your mind when you're just waiting for the darn phone call to come NOW!

Susan R said...

i just popped in to see if there was an update. That was so nice of you to think of your invisible friends even though you have no news. You are a very precious person Della.

S. Mifsud said...

Thinking of you in Sydney. Waiting is soo hard!
Simone

Урнаа said...

Sending good thoughts. Amazing momma you are.

Piper Paradise said...

Praying!! Hope you hear something soon. Merry Christmas!