oops, I totally forgot. Mr. Jonathan is the self-proclaimed tree waterer, albeit a forgetful one. He is on it now though.
Ah, Christmas. I have made cut out cookies three times now, two of the butter/sugar, and one of gingerbread. Last night I had a few...I figured if I was carbing up, I might as well just eat some, because they are going fast. I couldn't freeze any because our freezer is full of venison. I could have fit a few in, I suppose, but I'll just make more before Samuel gets home. Anyway, those cookies are GOOD.
Today, I was good. No cheating, just good healthy food. It's not easy to navigate through life avoiding sugar, but for me, it's necessary. I tell myself all sorts of things to help me stay on the straight and narrow..., like that I have managed for these months, I can manage more months. And it hasn't killed me. I remind myself that even if I have only lost about 20 pounds since the beginning of May, it was part of that roll above the waistband of my jeans. And I don't want that back. Not that it's gone, bit it is a little smaller. And smaller is good. I tell myself that my hot flashes are mostly gone, I am convinced that eating low carb, higher fat keeps them at bay...I tell myself that diabetes is a gateway illness that leads to all sorts of ailments like heart disease. Sugar = trouble, for me.
But the M&M's and the Reese's Peanut Butter Christmas Trees and the cut out cookies and the fudge...they beckon me, try to entice me. And it hasn't killed me yet to resist.
I do try to "carb up" at least once a week, sometimes twice. But those carbs should be relatively healthy...I usually just have popcorn popped in coconut oil. Rice or sweet potatoes are good choices. Not stacks of cookies. :) But occasionally on the carb night I will have a few cookies or something I normally don't eat, knowing that it is only that night, and the next morning I am back on track.
Anyway. I have lots of people on my Christmas list. Paul, Emily, (not Abigail, she's getting a gift when I visit here in Norway in March), Ben and Ashley and Anya, Mirielle, Joseph, Aaron, Mali and baby and Zac, Samuel, (not Margaret, she's also getting something when I visit here in March), Kathryn, Evelyn, Suzanne, Sonja, Jonathan, Charlotte Claire, Camille, my mother-in-law, our friend Adrian who is coming here for Christmas, and something for all my church friends....I have ordered, shopped, wrapped, and half-arsedly kept track of everything. I basically think I'm done, but I will issue my disclaimer again this year: if your sister got more than you, just remember it's not because mom loves her more than she loves you, it's because Mom just got befuddled and lost track of what she got for whom. And if you happened to get more than your sister, share with her for goodness sake, and don't think you are extra special, although you certainly are.
I tried. Aaron's right, that would be perfectly fitting to put on my tombstone.
"Here lies Della
Mother, Friend, Wife
Every Day of Her Life"
ha. It's so insulting but so fitting at the same time.
We watched our little sunshine today....Miss Lydia.
With Miss Evelyn Joy...
Christmas time brings it's share of pressures and trials and stresses. The baking and shopping and wrapping and remembering are enough, but then there is other real life, like eye doctor appointments (two tomorrow afternoon), and now a few orthopaedic appointments for Camille. And of course the grocery shopping and cleaning and doing our schoolwork each day. I look after Davian most days (which I love!), and Lydia sometimes (which I also love!), so I never ever get bored. I am working hard not to let holiday stress get it's claws into me. There is the spirit of Always More. More gifts, so they will be more pleased.
Here's something fun...we have lots of dollhouses and a whole collection of Little Tikes but mostly Fisher Price Dream dollhouse furniture. We decided to give a house and lots of accessories to a family we know with lots of small children, for Christmas. It makes me happy to know kids are going to get pleasure from these things I love so much, and it's good for me to let them go. Because believe me, I love these toys...it sounds crazy, but I didn't buy all of it just because my kids like it:)
Here's something not exactly fun, but interesting...our church youth group is selling wreaths for a fundraiser, for building churches and spreading the gospel, with a small portion going to fund activities for the children's groups...today, Sonja went with her cousin and an older friend, and they met an old man. This old man said he would like to buy a wreath, then proceeded to tell them that his wife had just passed away. Today, she died today. He was very sad, and seemed quite lonely. They went and bought him a card and some flowers. Who knows, maybe he has dementia and his wife died ten years ago, but so what. They made him happy. He blessed them, and they blessed him.
I took my walk today. I am trying like crazy to move more these days. It's nice to go on walks in this warm weather! Tomorrow, it's supposed to hit 65 here! In New York, in December! We simply have to go out to a park or something, somehow...it's not easy with Camille on crutches, but perhaps we can figure something out...because snow is in the forecast for next weekend.