blogging blues...

 ...sometimes I wonder if I've run out of things to say, if I'm just done blogging.  Maybe it's because I cannot post pictures, although I'm hoping that gets fixed when the new battery is installed.  In any case, we won't decide that today, no, not yet.

Can I complain a little here?  Our bodies are amazing things, how can something so complex and intricate NOT be designed by a loving heavenly Father?  Sometimes though, things get worn down, and well, they hurt.  I know I have really bad arthritis in my knees, I have for years and years now.  There's something funky with my lower back, it gets better then worse then better again, according to how gentle I am with it.  Sometimes I forget and lean over for the tenth time, cleaning or whatever, and ouch!  I can feel something slip out of place then back in, and one of these days...ugh.  

I cannot just squat down instead of leaning over, because more and more lately, my knees are fighting the whole bending thing.  My right knee, by the end of the day, just won't do it anymore.  

Last night, after a busy day, an amazing day, I showered and got comfy in bed, then the symphony of pain started.  My knee, up my thigh, down my shin, just ached.  It ached so badly I couldn't sleep.  I finally did fall asleep, woke up bright and early and though, I cannot go to the pool.  But no, I NEEDED to go to the pool.  I told Paul and Jonathan this morning about my aching knee/leg, Paul says it must not be an injury if it's feeling better this morning...which ha, didn't last long.  

I know some of you reading this might be shouting at your screen this very moment, just go to the doctor already!, I can hear you.  And, I might.  I might.  

On Wednesday, I'm going to the dermatologist, just in case you wanted to know.  I have had this thing on my face, thought it was a pimple on my cheek but it isn't, it just didn't heal up, then I realized it was over two months, uh-oh!  Skin cancer!  Do not google that, btw, it'll make you never want to take a step outside again.  

So yeah, the grandkids have been here quite a bit for the last few days, and they are so darling and fun and make life meaningful.  Jonathan and I went to Aldi yesterday morning and got some ribs, he was the rib smoker yesterday.  We also got some fresh local sweet corn, and I cut up the watermelon.  Dinner was pretty fantastic, even if it was a bit chaotic.

Our dryer stopped working while Paul was in Budapest.  I just dragged out the drying rack and used that, but shh, dog hair doesn't come off in the washer, it needs a little ride in the dryer too.  Anyway, he took the drum out, has it all apart, and figured out the part to order, then it'll go back together.   We hope.

What do you do with a pee-pee cat?  One of our cats, the sweet old lady kitty, pees on rugs.  You have to keep the bathroom doors closed, or she'll go in there and squat daintily.  I know it's daintily, because I've seen her do it.  She has a litter box, and the weather is fantastic, she can go outside.  I wash the rugs, and some I've had to throw away.  I am just so done with it.  I don't want our house to smell like that.  I cannot just keep her outside, because she's a princess cat, and she loves me.  She is almost always on the arm of my chair, purring.  It would be easier if she was a raging witch of a cat.....

See, I thought when the kids grew up, my work around here would shrivel up to nothing.  It has gotten much more manageable of course, but the animals!  They bring much joy, and much vacuuming.  

Emily and Mariel are on a hiking vacation out west.  They were planning to visit the Cascades, but forest fires happened and closed the trails they had planned on.  They get to visit Seattle and are going to Mt. Rainier, but may come home earlier now.  Their pictures have been gorgeous though. 

So I'm super thankful for my lot in life, and am working on finding my way through my rickety body.  I'm thankful I can go to the swim class, and for our pool too.  I am also thankful that I don't have a job where I have to be on my feet, at this point in life.  We all get our trials in life, the very hairs of our heads are numbered.  God has a plan for us, and when we trust in Him and lean not on our own understanding, things go well, despite what we might suffer...the sufferings of this time are not to be compared to the glory that is to come, right?  

Honestly, the hardest thing for me, besides not worrying about the future and not being able to walk at all!, is that I cannot help with the grandkids as much as I would like...I want to be able to babysit while they go out to dinner, to scoop up small children and carry them in to be changed, and to chase them at the playground.  I want to be able to pick up all the toys and get fun things out for them, and clean up messes.  

Oh well.  We each have only today, and we get to choose whether to be thankful and praise God for His goodness, or wish things were different.  We of course can do what we can to be healthy, not just sit in the chair eating junk food and wonder why we can't lean over, ha....oh dear, sometimes I ramble so much I bore my own self to tears.   Have a good day now!