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Thursday, October 10, 2013

in which she fails her mammogram.....

I am not dead and buried yet, however. Just that dreaded phone call from the radiologist, confirming that I hate cell-phones because I happened to be in Price Chopper,talking to an old man about how much cheaper Orville Redenbocker popcorn is down in Publix in Florida. So I got this phone call, which knocked me socks off. I tried to ask Ms. Radiologist what exactly it meant that "something showed up", but she said she was only the messenger, and that I had to make an appointment to come back in. Next week, I go back in.

Now, my mother had a breast cancer. When she was 43, she had a masectomy, followed by another masectomy, and chemo because the cancer had spread to her lymph-nodes. She survived, and lived until she was 69. So even if the "something" IS cancer, I am not necessarily doomed. But just for the record, I couldn't really finish my shopping. I went through the register in a fog. Jonathan isn't one to let anything go over his smart little head, so he kept asking me who called and what they said, so I was just honest, and told him it was probably fine, but I have to go back in for more tests.

Anyway, that is my story for the day.

I am going to work on being at rest. God knows what's best for me.

So I figure that if I am faithful to say a resounding NO to all thoughts of anxiety, and fight not to cross any bridges until I come to them, I will get some oil in my lamp, and much good will come of this trial.

For now, though, I would like to sneak into my room and have a little cry:)

15 comments:

The Moxley Family said...

Do not cry. Sometimes those "somethings" are absolutely nothing. Prayers coming your way!

greg&sarina said...

Lost your email address... But just wanted to let you know that you are in my prayers.

Kathyb1960 said...

First of all, don't panic! My first one I did showed "something". Turns out it was fat tissue, or something like that. But the dr mashed me to death trying to find something, which he never did.

You have one every year, so even if there is something there, we'll just pray it away. Just keep praying and I know whatever it is will turn out to be not much of anything.

I go for mine in November! You are in my prayers every day! As well as your boys who are in the Military, and your dau-in-law as she waits to have that baby! God bless you and your family!

kristine barr said...

Oh boy Hoping it is a nothing further exam. Deep breath, Deep breath.

Valerie said...

I'm sorry to hear this. I just read something on Facebook this morning that has helped me already today when I was tempted to worry about something going on with me-
"Our anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strengths." –Charles H. Spurgeon
Hope everything turns out ok.

Martha said...

Sending my love and prayers that it turns out like my one and only "bad" one. They decided it was intramammory lymph nodes, but it was enough to send me into a tizzy.

Jenea Wells said...

Thoughts and prayers for you lady. I'm sure everything will turn out just fine!

momto9 said...

Aaaaaw:( that's not good news but it was probably just a mistake

maureen said...

I am praying for peace in your heart.

Karen said...

Thinking of you in Australia.

Mum said...

Sending you a giant hug and praying for you through this wait and beyond. I really hope and wish this isn't anything like what your fear. Love reading your blog, you are such a wonderful mum.

16 blessings'mom said...

Well thank you ladies! I am trying not to panic, but as Martha put it, "tizzy" is very accurate for what I am in. I do know that God has His hand in everything and sends all for our very best, yet I still have to work my way through this.

Thank you for kind words, thought, prayers.

Robin said...

Praying for you.. Sending hugs and lots of caring thoughts.

Mary Kate said...

Praying for you!

baristamom said...

I'm thinking about you and praying for you too!
"My life in thy hands is resting, oh Father I thank thee so. Thou plan nest my good in all things, that come as life's way I go. Thy care & thy love enfold me, so great are they Lord for me, so great are they Lord for me."