And it's lovely. There's a full moon tonight. Last night, I found myself driving all.by.myself, drove the kids to the youth meeting, dropped them off...and all the way home, in that lovely moonlight, all by myself. Emily drove them home, so I didn't have to go back and get them, but I still enjoy the quiet times that happen so infrequently.
It is not quiet, once Anne arrives for the day. She was a bit on the cranky side yesterday, to put it mildly. She is only just three years old, and she has to get up and leave her house every morning, so I know it's tiring for her. I read her stacks of books, painted, colored, and played play dough with her. She played doll house and blocks and had her eggs and toast, and her snacks, and the daily banana. Mostly when I had children that age, they had siblings close in age to keep them busy.
I'm still plugging away at the intermittent fasting. I've learned so much about myself, and am forming better habits, but what I'd rather be writing is: I'm losing weight hand over fist, it's just falling off! But alas, no, it's dripping off in little bits, but at least I'm slowly losing, and not gaining. I don't know why my body is just so resistant to losing. I read about people who say, "Oh, I gave up soda, and lost a million pounds." Or, "I stopped eating bread, and went from a size one hundred to a size zero, in just six weeks!" I haven't drank soda or eaten bread, in years! Oh, I've had a bit of bread here and there, as the odd taste or treat, but generally speaking, I have a clean and healthy diet. So I can't just slash out a whole group of something and get results. My poor metabolism has taken a beating, and my weight was just creepy-crawling back up. At least I've found something that is reversing that frustrating trend! (look up Jason Fung. I can't say enough good about him. He's a nephrologist (kidney doctor), interested in stopping and reversing type II diabetes though diet.)
Anyway. I feel better since I've been fasting, mostly eating one meal a day, more flexible sometimes. I don't get all shaky anymore during the day, and am not actually very hungry. I am trying black coffee, for at least the morning cup, to see if that speeds things up a bit. And don't worry, I am eating enough! My dinner is a grand affair, but very healthy. Lots of meat, a bit of fat, and veggies. Sometimes a square of dark chocolate with peanut butter afterwards:).
Well, Anne will be here any minute. I think we're taking her out and about today, to the library, and to a store Jon wants to go to, to buy a drill...