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Paul and I, all 16 kids and Ashley, Benjamin's wife...Christmas 2012

Paul and I, all 16 kids and Ashley, Benjamin's wife...Christmas 2012
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Sunday, November 30, 2008

did you know that sonja, she likes to eat paper....

that is the important thing that Jonathan had to come out and tell me from bed. They are too excited for words. They have a string of clear Christmas lights strung up in their room....if they don't settle down soon, I might have to be a meanie....so I just hope hope hope they behave and go to sleep. I hate being the meanie.

We got out the Christmas stuff....we can only find 14 stockings. Aaron thinks he knows where his is....Sonja just came out to bring me a book Jon had in bed....so he came back out too....anyway, we got lights up in the living room windows, and some in the dining room, and our little village sest up, and some others things out......it seems unreal somehow, that we are decorating for Christmas already. We have to clean out the Christmas Tree corner this week. It is all organized and sorted, and shouldn't be too hard. We just have to find room in one of the bedrooms for 3 dollhouses and tons of furniture and accessories.....

All the little girls had their showers, and their hair brushed out and detangled, and daddy gave Jon a haircut. We had spaghetti for dinner, my ace-in-the-hole dinner.....I don't like that I used it already. Because you KNOW I don't know what's for dinner tomorrow, or the day after....I spent so much time and energy preparing for Thanksgiving.....we had the leftover dinner on Friday, which we had to suppliment with dinner rolls, to stretch the potatoes and stuffing....and then last night we made homemade pizza.....I think the daily dinner is the hardest thing about having a big family. Especially if you like to eat relatively healthy. I am just not a planner. I try and try, but I am just last-minute me.....and I still do that wander-into-the-kitchen-at-4 o'clock thing, and everything is frozen solid.......

Oh no, Jon is crying. They are not settling down.....okay, he is heading back to bed, again, he bumped his and has a huge lump on top....he and Sonja were fooling around, imagine that. Emily the nurse is home now, and she said he is probably fine. I sort of bug her by saying things like, "You're sort of a doctor, what do you suppose is wrong with Sam's foot?"...

I have been thinking alot about feeling sorry for myself. The thing is, people have feelings, ups and downs, and especially women are influenced by hormones....so basically, if I feel weepy or sad without reason, I can't really help it. But in all that, thoughts come, and I always can choose whether to allow them to stay, or to think better things. So, I feel sad, and I start blaming it on Paul for not being as nice to me as I think he should.....next thing I know, I am convinced that he just doesn't love me anymore....poor me. Or I start thinking that I have WAY too much to do.....and I color the whole day black in my mind.....oh, and the next day wil be no different....poor me. So today this was just outstandingly clear to me, this whole thing with my thoughts. And for that I am thankful. God is good.

Here are some things that really touch my heart:

1. Seeing my older boys play with Camille.

2. Today, Aaron held his little newborn second cousin....I almost cried.....

3. Today, I held little William.....I almost cried....in fact, I sort of did cry. Newborns just do that to me...

4. When one of the kids shares voluntarily......

5. Jonathan calls me, "mother"....almost always with a question mark after it....

Camille is toddling around the room, more and more, and you would think that none of has ever watched such an amazing event.....Mom, Mom, she is walking!!! Yes, it is a miracle. And No, I do not remember ever having such a cute chubby little sweetie learn to walk.....Although it must have happened some 15 times before.....

7 comments:

Martha said...

".....and I still do that wander-into-the-kitchen-at-4 o'clock thing, and everything is frozen solid......."

Oh that sounds like me. Lately I have started buying ham steaks from Wegmans. I initially planned to make them into soup; ham and potato, ham and cabbage,...) but when everything else is frozen solid, they sure do make a nice quick dinner. Whip up some mashed potatoes, throw on some frozen veggies (or cut up a squash), and drizzle a little honey and brown sugar over the ham as it warms up in a skillet. Oh, yes! Much too easy.

Kristy said...

"So, I feel sad, and I start blaming it on Paul for not being as nice to me as I think he should.....next thing I know, I am convinced that he just doesn't love me anymore....poor me."

I can relate to this thought today and if you'll excuse me, I think I have some apologizing to do.

Thanks for the eye opener.

Victoria.M.Paulik's Life said...

My brother eats paper too. Have you told her it has bleach in it and that she could get really sick? My brother loves to eat paper plates, or us to until my mother told him that. You more than likely already know this but paper has tons of stuff in it like that.
( I mean I didn't read the whole thing so I don't know how it ends but if I don't say it when its on my mind I forget it really easily)

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cheryl said...

You wander into the kitchen at 4? You are so lucky.. I usually wait until 5! And when I have planned ahead, making a really nice dinner, I expect someone to notice and compliment me, even though it's my JOB!!
Interesting how Satan can twist your thoughts around to get you thinking and believing outlandish things, and it can seem so true!! And cause so many problems. As women with hormones, it is something to be aware of and pray about, and we'll get our help.
Christmas is coming way too fast! Don't we say that every year??

Janis said...

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FLmom7 said...

I do the 4 o'clock wander-into-the-kitchen thing too. Sometimes I do plan and it works out well, but usually my plans don't go smoothly anyway and then it takes me awhile to want to plan things again;-)

And hey, no wonder you are so tired! I can't believe how many stores you went to on Black Friday! And you still haven't gotten much rest, so give yourself a break. You'll feel better soon.