reality

Last night, after all the little ones were in bed, I sat here on the computer, and partly watched "The Talented Mr. Ripley" with the older kids, it was interesting, but pretty bad....then, I went in and took a shower, and discovered my two favorite nighties were still in the camper....Camille was in bed, in front of the dresser, where the other nighties are....so I had to put on a t-shirt.....then I climbed into my bed only to discover I hadn't brought in my pillow from the camper, either.....then Camille, used to sleeping next to mommy in the camper, woke up 3 times to nurse.....then this morning, she woke up bright and early.....and no sooner did I get her out of her cute little pink bed, and Charlotte Claire was up, storming out of her room....I ran out and got her a bottle, and herded her into my room, to lie in bed with me while I nursed Camille, buying a little more sleep for the 4 little ones in the other room.....Charlotte Claire loves rousing them awake.....so anyway, here we are....the younger ones need breakfast, and I need to either get busy on the laundry (we've done 4 loads already), or plan a trip to the laundro-mat and get it all done at once.....I also need some groceries (surprise!).....and next week is our church summer conference....we will haul our camper out there and stay for 5 days.....so we need to vacuum out the Adirondack dirt, and re-pack....plus, I do a cookie-decorating thing for Children's Day every year, and have to buy the stuff for it....plus, I have to buy lots of candy for the "candy store", the favorite thing about the conference for the kids.....plus, I have to look for little plastic boats for Emily's splash center for the kids....plus, Abigail's car won't start.....and Ben has college stuff to be straightened out....and Sam is going to his friend's party tomorrow, and needs a present....and Aaron's glasses are in, and Joe needs an appointment to get his eyes checked when I pick up Aaron's glasses......and I am still kind of looking for some patio furniture (we had an old table that got smashed in a storm), I want some for 75% off......but I can't fit it in the van anyway.....and the van started making noise again....and the seatbelts aren't fixed yet, I need to call the dealer....Emily's car failed inspection because the ENGINE light won't go off.....yeah, sometimes the older ones are more work than the younger ones.....anyway, my brain started ticking about all these things (I have to pack again!)....(I have to plan meals for next week!).......as soon as I opened my eyes this morning...(I have to start pumping milk, as I am leaving my incredible nursing baby for 5 days in a few weeks).....(I have to make arrangements about where to stay, as the hospital for Aaron's surgery is almost 3 hours away)......yeah, yeah, it will all fall into place....but: I want to go back to the mountains, sit in my chair, stare off into the distance, sip my coffee, and think about nothing.....